Heartache is one of the most painful aches I know...
It has now been six months since the day he left me and yet kept my heart. It doesn't ache as much these days, I guess time heals every wound..
But I'm a changed woman.
I'm cold.
I don't care about the things I use to care about. Family and friends yes, but feelings are totally blocked. I don't care how people respond to me or the way I behave, nothing matters. Before I met my ex I gave myself a promise, from the breakup I had before his to never put me in a position where I can be hurt.
I broke that promise the day I met Him.
I will never experience that love again. And I don't want to. I don't want anything to ruin the memories of the way he made me feel. He loved everything about me that I disliked, and turn them into likes. Suddenly I loved everything about myself just because He loved them..
He's gone now.
He was gone long before I even knew..He still has my heart though. But only cause I'm too afraid to take it back, with the risk of giving it to someone else, someone new. And to see it get damaged again.
I'm keeping my Love Lockdown.
"They say if you love something, you've got to let it go.
And if it comes back, then it means so much more.
But if it never does, at least you will know,
That it was something you had to go through to grow"
Heather Hadley
